2009..
really a bad year for me and my family..
I loss 2 people which have blood relationship with me in 100 days..
Life's really short...
I don know really can face it anot..
why?
why??
why???
why this happen to us??
next week going to visit my dad for leaving us 100 days on 2nd of May..
since some of us are not free on 2nd of May..
so we decide to visit him next Sunday..
I am really unhappy for these few months..
I thought everything will getting better soon..
but..
seen like it is not going to happen..
now
I getting more sad and unhappy..
although I not always communicate with this brother..
but
suddenly loss of him..
my heart really very sad..
he used to be in my family..
now..
he is no more here..
I cant see him anymore..
I really hate to be involved funeral ceremony..
it makes me thinks back of my father..
I am really sad..
Even I wanna cry..
I need to hide myself and when I am alone..
daddy..
why?
I really feel like wanna 'bong kui le"..
I getting suffer more suffer..
how am I going to accept this??
daddy..
tell me what should I do..
I am lost now..

may god bless u ~ bee