♥ Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Today for me
---> is a scary day..
others maybe
---> is a fabulous day..
I went to pallitive with my dad because he really not feeling well these few days..
Then we went to emergency blok n waited for an hour to c doctor..
He seen like very tired..
When I looked at him, my teardrops within a second..
I am very scare..
No one beside me..
And again I am LONELY..
I really don know wat will happen next..
I told myself to be strong but my tears still dropping..
Why am I so weak??
by makiyi-pohyee at 10:20 PM
♥ Wednesday, December 24, 2008
sometimes u donu anythings better u know bout it..
when u donu bout it u will lives better and happier..
But...
- when u know bout it, you will starts suffering..
so..- I rather choose donu anything bout life, family, friends, love, studies or other people..
one of my friend told me tat he is a LOSER since he was born..But now..
- I feel myself who is a LOSER now..
yo~ u r superman, yo~ u r superman, yo~ u r superman, I'm LOSER!!
- I am a big loser in my big family
- among friends
- my studies
- my stupid love
- and everything in this world..
Maybe I should live alone in my world..Sound like becoming a crazy ppl soon..not everyone could stand in my position now..
No one will understand the feeling..
Every times I thinks back,my tears immediately come out within a second..
these memories will follow entire of my life..Is there anyone could help me to delete this memories??
SIGH..
suan ba..I know there is no one can help..
by makiyi-pohyee at 2:40 AM
♥ Saturday, December 20, 2008
Sometimes I think that whether my friends know bout my problems or my secrets,
mostly they could not help me much although I am very suffer and suffer and suffer..
So I rather don talk bout it with them anymore..
Sometimes I feel seem look like almost everyone knew bout my things by their way looking at me..
Am i too sensitive??
Or they really knew bout it??
so.. whatever..
Mostly all my relatives don really care bout my family..
I don care bout it anymore cos I wont tell anyone bout it again..
I will keep it deep in my heart forever..
No one wil know my secrets and my problems anymore..
Only me myself know..
By this way.. I can protect myself and will feel better with them who don know my problems compare to those who knew which some them don give a DAMN bout it!!!
So WHY should I care so much for them??
I just have to treat them back the way they treated me and my family..
So don blame on me!!
Just think back what had you done at me and my family first!!
by makiyi-pohyee at 12:28 AM
♥ Saturday, December 13, 2008
WHY??
----->>>> why you suddenly appeared in front of me??
I would be feel better if I din saw u..
Today you keep appeared in my mind..
all about you keep appearing..
Why would this happen today??
------>>>>Why is today??
What happen to me??
am I still thinking of you??
am I still like you although you just treat me as a friend??
anywhere..
I really hope this would not be happen again cos I don wan to be suffer because of you again..
If you really like someone before,
you should understand my feeling now..
by makiyi-pohyee at 8:48 PM
♥ Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Today I feel..
- moody..
- happy..
- sad..
- regret..
WHY LER??
Why will feel like this ler??
DON KNOW…
Actually not I don know is I don wan to know..
But I have to know..
For me, promise is a promise..
So no matter what I will try my best to make it..
Feel..
- MOODY = Don feel wanna FONG FEI KEI to my friends although I know I am very needed in my house today.. so don know what to do..
- hAPPY = sing k with my friends and went out to take a breath.
- SAD = saw someone and rethink back past memories..
- REGRET = cant help my mom out and company my father..
Am I done wrong today?!!
I just don wan to make my friends feel disappointed at me and don wan to make my parents feel disappointed me too..
But today I had make my parents disappointed at me..
I should not went out today..
Feel really very REGRET!!! (T.T)
by makiyi-pohyee at 9:59 PM
